It’s been a while.

It’s been some time.

I’ve been meaning to get back to this for months..weeks, but it never happened.

I’ve been home home for about a week now and I had plans to do this during that time, but again, nothing.

Sure, I had been busy a few days, but there were days when I didn’t do anything but be home home.

Doing nothing.

Sigh.

Motivation.

Gone.

Life.

Not the same.

Pre-Pandemic Life > Pandemic Life.

That’s not to say that life currently is all that bad, it’s just different.

Just different.

Maybe that’s how things are now.

Just different.

What’s been happening in my life since my last entry?

It’s been about two months, maybe?

Well, in the grand scheme of things, not much has changed.

Working working working.

Unmotivated unmotivated unmotivated.

Life life life.

That’s the typical norm.

Sure, I got a two week vacation back home home to spend time with my family and then a week or working remotely and then it’s back to my regularly scheduled program.

Work. Unmotivated. Life.

I did get a new car and a PlayStation 5.

Those are about the only new things in my life.

I love the car. 2022 Honda Civic Hatchback EX-L. It should last me, hopefully, a good 15-20 years and by that time there would be a proliferation of electric vehicle and hopefully a better infrastructure that will benefit electric vehicles for my needs.

Currently it’s not there yet. Not enough fast charging stations and not convenient to charge the car, especially on long road trips.

That’s the biggest reason why I got a gas guzzler. Electric is not there yet and I’m betting that in 15-20 years’ time, we’ll have some things better planned out and implemented.

Until then, I’ll be adding onto my carbon footprint.

PlayStation 5.

We’ll, that was a surprise to me since I never really played any games with my ps3, but now I am. I think I need a distraction from streaming TV and find another way that I can work my brain and turn off my brain at the same time.

I can’t read anymore.

Books sit unfinished for months and years at a time.

I told myself that I would make a big dent in Dune while I’m home home, but alas, I have not even opened up the book. Sigh.

My brain doesn’t function that way anymore. Work messed me up.

I’m tired.

My brain is tired.

My body is tired.

Work. Unmotivated. Life.

Sigh.

All I can do is glance and skim at short memes or articles on imgur or reddit.

I’ll read some short news stories from whatever aggregator that I’m using and that’s it.

I’m kept informed about the world and then I go carry on my solitary existence.

Life.

Not really that different from my pre-pandemic life, but it’s just different.

Just different.

Just different.

Sigh.

Just. Different.

Home home.

Just different.

I was lamenting the other day while I was away out alone with Galette that my days home home are just different now. I don’t have the luxury or the freedom of spending it alone anymore.

During pre-pandemic times, whenever I get home home, I’d spend many of my days and times here by myself with Pickles as my company. I’d be able to plan big hiking trips or extended hiking trips.

Now, with my bro WFH and my mom retired, they are always here. I don’t get the alone time anymore.

Whenever I leave by myself, there’s a pang of guilt that I’m not including my mom or even my bro at times.

That’s a me issue. I’m sure they don’t care and I need to get used to it, but there’s a sense of guilt there for some reason.

So, I do make an effort to find and do things with my mom. I’d like to get her out of the house and active and be able to explore the state that she’s spend a majority of her life living in.

She’s worked so hard day after day and she never got to explore and do things.

So, I plan days where we explore.

It started last summer when I took her hiking with me at Snoqualmie Falls and Hoh Rain Forest.

This year I took her to Whidbey Island. I never been on a ferry before nor have I ever explored any of the islands. So why not?

Let’s explore.

We spend the day driving through Whidbey and getting a nice lunch.

Our next adventure was hiking. I took mom to Wallace Falls State Park and hiked to the lower falls. She had problems. Too many ups and downs on the hike. But we did four miles.

We then stopped by Leavenworth for lunch. It was quaint.

I only had one alone day as I slipped out to spend the afternoon by myself. Mom had a dentist appointment, so I ended up exploring Ruston again and explored Tacoma. I drove past the old house and old familiars to see how the city changed.

Every time I come up, it looks just different.

I went to visit dad at the cemetery, along with grandpa and grandma and uncle and aunt. I brought Galette with me and introduced her to them.

I originally kept her in the car, but she kept yelping and there was a ceremony happening and I didn’t want her yelping to interrupt.

Galette behaved while she was with me.

Life.

Just different.

The coming week will be a crapshoot. I don’t have much planned as there are so many things up in the air.

We are ramping up to Sinh & May’s wedding. Aunties and other family will be coming in town and I’m sure there are family things to do so I am not sure what days will be dedicated to dinners and such.

Also, I don’t know if I’ll be needed to chauffer mom and aunties around.

No fucking clue.

Maybe I can slip a day or two of adventure. Who knows?

Also, the weather could be shit too.

Hahha

Sigh.

Tired.

Tired.

Mount Rainier.

Tuesday I went to Mount Rainier for the first time ever since I got into hiking. I’ve been back here so many times that I never been.

Much of it had to do with having Pickles with me and not having anyone to watch Pickles while I’m hiking, but I took advantage of having my bro and mom at home and had them watch Galette for the day while I went.

Wow.

Just wow.

It’s such a beautiful park and I only explored a small portion of it.

I did the popular Skyline Trail. Majestic.

It fucking kicked my ass.

My body was so tired after it.

I’m out of shape.

Definitely will make use of having free dog sitters for the day and go back again and again.

Looking forward to it and more hikes.