Alive.

Shaking.

Breathing.

What’s been happening since the last post a few weeks ago?

Welp, I’m healthy-ish.

Got my results back from my recent checkup and it wasn’t as bad as I thought. My total Cholesterol was the same, my bad cholesterol went up a few points and my good cholesterol went down slightly, but overall healthy.

The stress eating isn’t good for my heart nor my health and I know that. I was expecting much worse.

That’s a win, I guess.

My heart is normal.

I guess my new heartburn is from getting old.

Getting old sucks.

What else is new?

Went down to San Diego to visit uncle. He seems to be doing well, but with the corona virus, his business is taking a hit.

Ignorant people avoiding Asian shops thinking they are the source of the virus.

Hopefully things get better.

Auntie seems to be doing well. Able to still get up and get around, albeit very slowly, but she’s still kicking.

I’m glad that I went down to visit. It’s good seeing them again.

Auntie didn’t recognize me. Uncle said I got fatter, that’s why.

Well, it’s true. I did gain more weight since the last time that I saw them last.

While there, I got to explore San Diego a little. I think it’s pretty all right from what I’ve seen.

I will need to see more and I think I’ll make a few more trips down there. I need to find better hiking places, but I think the Mission Trails should be cool.

Next time.

I might need to find a better place to stay. As cute as the receptionist is at the motel, the place sucked. Or it was just smelly and dirty. Ahh, cheap hotel living. I guess you get what you paid for.

Work.

It’s going.

The reporting work is ongoing and I took a week away from it from the long long weekend, to getting sick, and busy with other work that I forgot what exactly I was working on for the programmatic team.

Things are winding down on the other projects so I have more time to focus on it now. I just need to remember what it is I was working on.

The online dashboarding project?

Shit show.

It just seems like a shit show now because the person running it is not the best communicator and I have no idea what’s going on.

We’ll go days, weeks of not communicating and then they’ll rush me on getting the project and timeline going. I need info from them, but they drop things on me last minute and expect things to get done now.

I’m really fucking over it.

I honestly don’t need that fucking kind of shit.

Things keep getting passed to me and it’s because I have my hands on so many things and I know so many other things.

Sigh.

When you are too good at your job.

Yay me.

Overall, at the moment, besides work, things are well.

Trying to work on my health.

Trying to not let work get to me. The SharePoint migration project should be wrapping up within the next month and a half so I don’t have to worry about that anymore.

No more weekend work.

Just relaxing and doing nothing on the weekend and trips.

I know I need to save money and invest, but trips.

I extended my Chicago trip to a full week because of a Microsoft Ignite convention that is happening there a few days after I planned on leaving. I think it’ll be good to see what’s on the roadmap and I think there were a few things that piqued my interest in the different tools that we are using and on governance and such.

It’ll be out of pocket on the flight and hotel, but honestly, I don’t care. It gets me out of the office which is the bane of my existence now.

People.

Just can’t deal with people.

Sigh.

People.

They’re the worse.

One day I need to take some time and go over everything that I need to do.

I know I have a list, but I don’t know how up to date it is and what is missing.

There’s just so much I need to do and so much I’m relying on others, but I’m so swamped that I’m not caring what the others are doing and things are delayed.

Fuck everything.

I need to worry about myself and my mental health and my physical health.

Trips.

Trips.

Trips.

And some hiking and yoga and exercise in there too.

Let’s see what happens.

Didn’t know where this was going or how it was going to end up, but here it is.

Slow.

Falling behind on my projects, but I’m making progress.

It’s been constant learning and a test to my patience as I figure out how to do this whole reporting thing.

It’s been trying.

But, I’m making it through. I’m making progress and I’m getting somewhere.

It’s just not happening as fast as I want it to happen.

Part of it is my fault and part of it is just how it is and I have no control over that. I just need to be patient and let things ebb and flow at its own pace.

Patience.

My hamartia.

Life.

What’s been happening?

It’s been a long ass fucking month, but it wasn’t until yesterday, the last day of January that I had my first “Fuck Today” day.

Work.

Always work.

It’s a trying day of waiting and waiting and waiting and trying to understand how data fits together.

Sometimes I do wish I knew more about Media so I can just do it, but alas, I don’t.

But definite big progress was made and I just need to verify and confirm on Monday that the Power BI file works on my laptop and then do a demonstration.

Once that is finished, I can turn that over and focus on the things I need for the project, how to figure out the messaging and spending.

The model is taken care of through the nomenclature as is the messaging, but I need a translation table for both.

Spending will take some time.

But, that should be it for Programmatic though.

Thankfully.

Chinese New Year.

Happy New Year.

Year of the Rat.

I think it’ll be a somewhat good or okayish year for me. I don’t know for sure, but sure, maybe.

I spent New Year’s Eve at Uncle Joe’s with the family and had a great time and enjoyed the food as always.

Then I spent the weekend in Fresno with Gifu and Sister and the fam.

Phinny was down for work and Amy, Maggie, and Soung too.

I haven’t seen them in a while, so why not.

Overall, the weekend was good. It was good to hang out with them again and catching up, but man, sometimes family is just too fucking much.

Glad I went, but definitely glad that I only spent a limited time there.

Just too much.

It does seem like 2020 is shaping up to be Year of Family.

I’m going to San Diego in a few weeks to do some hiking and visit 7th Uncle. I haven’t seen him in a few years and needed to go visit and wanted to for a while now.

I won’t be going home this year for the summer, or I may. I haven’t decided yet, but I think I may go to central Oregon for the family weekly thing and possibly do some hiking.

I’ll only go for a long weekend or something and plan a small road trip with hiking and what not.

No Pickles unfortunately.

I’m going home for April for Qing Ming and to get the whole old house situation taken care of and then I’m off to Chicago.

Year of Family.

Definitely.

It’s funny that I do go through phases of doing a lot of family thing and then there are years when I’m like…fuck family. I’m on my own.

But the year had just started. I got a few trips lined up and am looking forward for more.

Ahh to socialize….

It’s getting easier.

I’m going out a little more and it’s just getting easier.

I got dinner recently with Courts and there was a going away happy hour a few weeks ago.

Happy hours are getting easier and easier and it all depends on who’s there.

Surprisingly at the latest I got to talk with Hfritz.

I was always curious about her. It’s always those seemingly quiet ones that piques my interest.

She seems cool and got that quiet self-confidence and she’s cute.

But overall, we’ll see how this year will go in the social front.

I don’t know.

Wing it, I say.

Ebb and flow.

My style.

2020.

It just started and it’s already galloping.

Where will I end up?

I guess we’ll see at the end of the year.

But please, it’s been a rough few years, go easy on me.