Got a surprise today.

After a long day of working at home and already an hour this morning, I arrived at my local hangout and setup like I normally do.

The boba girl was busy doing her work and I sat and did what I needed to do until she was ready. She usually calls me when she’s ready, but today she brought me my tea.

I went up to pay and she said to not worry about it. It’s her last day opening here, so she won’t see me anymore.

“It’s on me,” she said.

So sweet. So unexpected.

Score.

Free tea.

Throughout the years I’ve worked here, I’ve met and gone through so many boba girls/guys that open. I sit at my table with my laptop typing away as I wait for them to officially open, order my tea and sit back down.

I keep to myself, for the most part. Well, besides Cat, I usually keep to myself.

I’m friendly to them and I hope that I wasn’t much of an inconvenience to them.

They’re my fixer.

It’s a nice relationship.

I do wonder what they all think of me. All these random people that I’ve met. I wonder if they let me do it because Rei told me that I’m okay or if they are just chill with me sitting in here before it opens.

I wonder.

Whatever they think of me, I’m glad that they allow me to do it.

I’m happy that they let me do it.

Stress.

It comes and goes.

Different projects.

Different phases.

I’m at a good spot right now. Not too stressed. Not too relaxed either.

It’s waiting. Waiting and anticipating what’s coming next.

One project should be winding down soon as another just took off.

The problem with the database project, I don’t know what is to come of it.

I think I have everything, but I don’t know.

I don’t know.

I know it is something that’s been necessary for work for such a long time and if it functions how I think it is going to function, it’ll help with work and efficiencies.

It’ll make many people’s jobs easier.

The downside, it’ll also make people obsolete.

Automation.

Good and bad.

There’s always a catch.

Once the database is set and functioning the way it is supposed to, the next step or phase of the project is setting up the reports.

Automation.

Reports.

There will be many many workshop sessions with the different team to get an understanding of how their reporting works.

Fun times.

I’m looking forward to it. It’ll be different work for once.

But holy fuck me man, that’s a lot of responsibility and there’s so much shit coming down the pipeline and I’m sure there are others that I’m not anticipating.

I can only do so much.

I should take more breaks.

Fuck it.

I need it.

Work life balance.

I need a peace of mind.

I deserve it.

I fucking deserve it.

Treat yo’ self.

I’m craving tacos.

I can’t stop thinking about tacos.

Mexican food.

Been working a lot of overtime over the weekend, why the fucking hell not.

Need to feed my cravings.

TACOS!

Break.

Breaks.

Things I want to do or plan.

I know I want a trip after finishing up the database.

Would it be too close to the Spain trip?

I don’t know.

I still need to book tickets for the attractions. The least I can do while my bro is planning everything. I’m not worried about the money, he’s good a paying me back.

Trips.

I also want to go to Dialogue again. A treat to myself for finishing phase one of the database project.

That project has been a fucking year and a half of my life.

I can’t believe that it’s finally over and there’ll be something substantial to show for it.

I can’t wait for it to be over.

It’ll be done and done.

Decisions.

Work.

I make a lot of business decisions at work. I make many that affect the agency and different departments.

I make them.

I consult with Benjo and others, but I’m the one that makes them.

That’s a lot of responsibility.

I don’t know when this all happened, but here I am.

I never figured to be such an integral part of the agency.

I never figured to be so involved in the agency.

Times were simpler back in the day when all that mattered and all that I should be focus on was helping end users with their issues.

Times were so much simpler back then.;

I didn’t need to make big decisions.

I wasn’t involved in big projects.

I just show up, answer tickets and calls and people’s request to fix things.

Simple.

Now, I do all of that on top of everything else I do.

These past few years, I’ve never been in so many meetings. I never learned so much about advertising. Media.

I learned a lot.

So much.

So fucking much.

I need a break.

I need another one.

I know that I got back from one less than a month ago, but it’s time.

I need another hiking one. I need to do more hiking.

I need more nature in my life.

I need to figure out where to go.

Where haven’t I gone?

Should I go back to someplace I’ve been before or someplace new?

Decisions.

Decisions.

In the meantime, I need to keep my sanity just a little longer.

Just a smidge.

There’s light.

I see the light.

I found it funny that Cyndi saw the light at the end of this project too.

Almost done.

Almost.

Can’t wait.

I will be fine.

I know I will.

I have faith.

I’m good.

I’m.

Good.