It’s fucking alive.

It’s back up after nearly 10 days of being down.

Contacted GoDaddy and it seems that the database was down because they had to migrate it from an old server to a new server. They never emailed me about the maintenance and there goes my site.

It took them days to migrate the database over and once they did, there was nothing in the database. They had to find it and restored it from their many backups.

Even then, the site wasn’t up. Called their Tech Support multiple times to get it up and they weren’t able to help.

The database was good, but it’s wasn’t seeing my site. All of my settings were correct, but yep, no go.

Turns out that if I needed to get it up, I’ll have to pay them about $80/mo to get it up, guaranteed. That’s $80 on something that they fucked up, to get this up and running.

So, I opted to do some google and I FUCKING FIXED IT MY FUCKING DAMN SELF.

The host address that they provided for my database was incorrect, so I put in the fucking IP address of the server the database.

Badabing! I’m back!

Yeah, after everything, I think my sight would be fine here but I think I really do want to move it over to WordPress.com. See what happens.

Let’s see what happens.

It’ll be a few months or so before I will because I want to get the work thing taken care of first, but yeah, fucking ass, let’s do this.

Year of change, right?

Let’s change shit up.

* * *

Sick.

I’ve been sick since forever and don’t even remember the last time I felt healthy.

I still have that lingering cough and the stress from work doesn’t help.

The great thing though is I’m on the mend. I’m hacking up green stuff. Great. Awesome.

I think after this, I’ll be in good shape.

I need rest. Sleep.

Sleep and sleep and sleep.

I’m looking forward to my little trip. To my little vacation. I’m looking forward to that. That’s keeping me going.

YOSEMITE.

Back to nature. Back to the woods. Back to the glorious beauty that is Yosemite.

It’s been a while since I’ve gone hiking. Sure, I did some in Italy, but the last time was July 4th weekend. The Rockies.

It’s good to be back in nature again.

One more week to go.

I’ll survive.

* * *

Launch.

Dash.

We’re launching.

Monday.

It’s not perfect, but for a 1.0, I think we are in good shape.

There are a few bugs or things that aren’t working properly, but I’m okay with it. I need a little more guidance on how to do certain things or a better understanding of how some of our Vendor’s tools work.

They documented some processes, but when I tried them, they didn’t work. It seems like I did everything properly, but nope, doesn’t work.

I need to know why.

Most everyone had been working long and hard on this project and in a way, I’m happy to see it go live. It’s going into the wild and then we’ll know what’s actually wrong with it or what works or what people like.

It’s one of my big stressors and once it’s there, I won’t have to worry much about it anymore. It’ll be off my radar for a while as I go back to focusing on SharePoint and Social Bridge migration.

Things are going well on that front as I am steering the HRM team towards using document libraries vs. subsites to manage many of their initiatives.

It’s cleaner.

Just cleaner in terms of management and navigation.

The next thing would be getting a more cohesive experience in terms of navigation and look and feel across the agency.

SharePoint.

I’ll be living and breathing it for years to come, if I do end up staying here.

The future.

So unclear.

The future.

So unknown.

But it comes.

It marches steadily on and on.

* * *

I sit.

All I do is sit.

Life passes me by. Life zooms by.

It’s such a fleeting thing.

Life.

It goes.

I sit and I watch.

I don’t participate in everything that life has to offer.

I do enough to guarantee me existence, but no more.

I don’t seek out people and build a relationship with them. I don’t see out activities that many find interesting and lively.

I don’t.

I’m passive.

I’m passive until it is time for me to act and do, then I spring forward with all the life that I have.

I act on my own volition and on my own emotions, whatever and whenever that may be.

I admit that many of the things that I do don’t make sense to others or even to me at times, but it’s how I live. I act and live based on many things.

My logic. My experience. My sense of security. My emotions.

Sometimes many of these things conflict with each other and anxiety is the result.

That’s life and we just have to go with it.

Find different ways to relax and deal with everything that comes your way.

Find ways to survive.

Life.

It’s a beast.

But there’s a lot of beauty to it.

It’s a magical thing, to be alive, to live, to experience.

* * *

Life.

Magic.

It’s magic.

There’s something special about the simplicity of connecting with someone and get to know them.

There’s no pretense to it. Just a genuine curiosity of how that person thinks and understanding of what makes them tick.

There’s something special about that.

It’s nice to share a simple and subtle flirtation, even if you know that it’s not going to go anywhere. Just to hope that it might, makes my heart goes pitter-patter.

The knowing looks shared between us, each understanding the game that we are playing.

Flirting.

It’s fun.

It’s dangerous.

It’s lively.

It’s these little moments that make life exciting in a sea of mundane.

Life.

It’s ALIVE!

I’m ALIVE.