My site is down.

It had been down since sometime yesterday (2-2-18). So, as I type this, there’s no way to publish this.

I called GoDaddy last night and they said that the server that this was on was corrupted and it was moving to a new one.

When I logged into my account, my hosting is Pending Account Changes. I don’t know what that means. I also saw that there were services that I did not order. So I deleted them.

I don’t know if I got hacked or not, but I think I should change my password.

I think it is time for me to move this site and not host it through GoDaddy. Might be time to just migrate it over to WordPress and have them host it. It’s not too bad.

The look and feel will definitely change as I’ll have to use their basic default themes, but I think I’m quite okay with that. We shall see. I think I get to keep my vanity url too.

I’ll look into it.

We shall see.

* * *

Tired.

I think I am sick again.

I know I am sick again.

Throat is hurting and I’m going deaf and my eyes can’t focus fast enough anymore. Blah. I’m getting old.

I need to rest, but I am going to do some work today for the HRM team, moving their SB sites over and doing backups when I can.

I think I’ll take a break tomorrow for Super Bowl Sunday. I plan on cooking.

Speaking of which, I think I need to do some research as to what are good veggies to tempura.

I need to get back to cooking. I need to get back to relaxing.

Work is killing me.

Things are getting better. Things aren’t getting so crunch time, but things aren’t perfect.

SharePoint is still new at the agency. I think it’s a good tool as long as people understand how to use it and that’ll just take time and learning and process and workflow.

The thing is, I’m not patient.

Not at all.

* * *

Enough.

Enough about work.

I will be taking some time off soon. Just one day to extend an already extended weekend.

I’ll be going to Yosemite over Chinese New Year’s weekend. New Years day is on Friday and it just works out well.

I’ll spend time with Great Uncle on Thursday and then head out to Fresno on Friday and then to Yosemite Friday night.

It’s been too long since I’ve seen family and I think it’ll be good.

I just want to get away from a computer and be in nature for a few days to recharge. I need to get healthy so this sickness doesn’t ruin that little vacation.

I’m going to hike to my heart’s content. I’m going to take in the fresh mountain air and the beautiful scenery.

I going to just fucking Zen out.

I’ll meet up with Steve and his girlfriend too.

A break.

A vacation.

I deserve it.

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Before my site crashed, I’ve been going through my old entries and I think I got to 2007. Four years into it and a good 10 years ago.

Lots have changed.

My writing changed. The pose and lyricism that I once possessed seem so out of reach now. I struggle to put words into sentences. I struggle to write something that doesn’t sound so standard and declarative.

I feel that my writing now is more, this happened and then that happened.

I lost my poetry.

I lost my creativity.

I lost my flow.

That deeply troubles me.

I want it back, but I don’t know how to get it back.

What do I need to do? Write more?

I’ve been writing.

What to do?

I need that rush, that joy of creative writing. I need to feel it in my blood.

I miss it.

Alas, my brain, fried. I can’t’ think. I can do not much than experience blah.

My brain blahed out and that’s where I stand.