I’m here at the usual, but I’m sitting back where I usually sit, near the window. That’s my spot, or was, before my body got weak and it got too cold with the constant blowing of the AC.

They changed it, they put a little wind shield that blocks the flow from blowing my way, so it’s not as strong.

It’s still there though, but it’s not that bad.

So, I’m here, writing, doing my little thing of just mind purging.

What is there for me to say? Nothing much besides the usual bullshit about work and all the things that I’ve been doing.

I’m trying not to do work on the weekend and for the most part it is happening. I did do some research and little things here and there, but not enough for it to fill my time.

* * *

Relaxing.

Calm.

Sure, there’s still a lot of stress at work, but again, there isn’t as much pressure as there was. I think I’m able to manage it as I turn stuff in.

But, there are a few that are still left up in the air and I just need to figure it out or just forget it.

Work is work.

It’ll always be there.

* * *

I look, but don’t act.

I sit and chat, but don’t ask.

I focus on work.

I focus on my life.

I focus on food, vacation, trips, chores, errands, and my pets.

I focus on everything but that.

I need to.

The thought of it shouldn’t be the only thing in my mind. It should never be.

There are more important things in life than that.

I need to focus on nothing but me and I’m damn good at that, damn fucking good at it.

I come and sit and do my little finger tappings, sipping on my tea and Zen out.

It’s all that I can do. It’s all that I should do.

* * *

Relaxation.

I need to schedule another float session.

I thought that I was going to make it a monthly thing because it was such a revelation to me, but I guess life and general business of work just got in the way.

Surprising because it probably would have helped me deal with the stress that I was going through, but maybe I thought with all the money that I spent on getting Relish back to normal, this wouldn’t be a good idea.

But here I am, dropping money on an Italy trip and now a new laptop when this old laptop still works.

I need better. I need faster. I need something that can last me another five years.

I see the flaw in this laptop since I got it. the i5 processor was slow to my liking even though I have 12gbs of RAM on this thing. It still runs slugging at times.

Disappointing.

With the small size, I need something with better resolution and now there are quite a few laptops that have higher resolution.

Definitely time to upgrade.

Sure, it’s a personal laptop but it’ll be used for work too. Maybe I can now just work wherever I want and not be tied to my desk at times. When I need to get away and focus on other things and not have a distraction.

Who knows? I’ll have to see how things turn out.