It’s been a while since I’ve been this stressed for so long.

I know I was stressed with Relish and what she’s gone through, and that is winding down. I’m talking about work.

It has been a while that I’ve been so stressed at work.

Before it was the transition from on-prem Exchange to O365 Cloud.

Now, it is SharePoint development and new Microsoft Tools.

I ran my experiments, my own pirate ship, as Benjo would like to call it, with different people and different groups in the agency, introducing this new tool to their work flow and trying to just make it work.

For the most part, I can see and understand what everyone wants and it is just me trying to figure out how to do that with SharePoint.

There’s a lot of development, meetings, questions, trial & error in getting everything up and running.

There’s just a lot of work and I’m the only one doing the development. I’m the only one that has the knowledge that knows how to develop in SharePoint.

So, everything is down to me.

It’s a lot of pressure because it seems that it is the tool that we are going to commit to. It’s the tool that will replace Social Bridge and it makes sense. It’s part of our license agreement. Why pay for something else when we have something that does the same thing.

The setup and the maintenance and the admin isn’t going to be fun, but at least it is robust and can do the job.

That’s what we’re looking at right now.

So, I’m knee deep in multiple projects and multiple roll outs in getting people what they want.

In a way, it is fun. I’m busy and I’m using my brain to figure shit out, but on the other hand I feel like I’m navigating blindly to figure things out.

At least we have a vendor to help with the build out and to make things pretty. I think that is one of our drawbacks, it looks plain and out of the box. It’ll get fixed.

The stress will subside once we go live and make the announcement and start actually building the structure and jump right into the development side of this project.

But yeah, this stress and everything with Relish, and all the onboarding of the new people…it’s been a fucking busy year and it is almost half over.

Almost half over.

Let’s hope the rest of the year goes more smoothly.

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I need a vacation.

Thankfully, I have one coming up at the end of the month. Denver. The Rocky Mountains.

I need to plan that. Figure out what hikes to do. Figure out what to do in Denver. Where to eat? What to explore.

But mostly, I just want to enjoy and not think about work. I just want to get away from people and get back into nature to recharge.

I need nature in my life.

I need mountains in my life.

I need trees in my life.

I need more seclusion in my life.

It’ll be a good trip. It’ll be an interesting trip.

Looking forward to it.

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With all the stress that I’m going through, I’ve been stress eating.

Been craving sugar and sugar and sugar and eating and eating and eating and eating whatever I can.

Meals on meals on meals. Fast food and other horrible foods that I normally don’t eat.

My diet is just trash, but I think I’m slowly getting back into things.

Started to cook again to help manage the stress, to Zen out and I think that helps a little bit.

But, let’s see.