Well, I’m officially off this little cleanse that I put myself through, or this little inconsistent cleanse since getting sick.

In the past, few weeks, I tried my hardest to be compliant but if it wasn’t one thing it was another that brought me out of it. Getting tired of trying to keep a strict diet and my stomach feeling a little bit better, I decided to get off this cleanse and reintroduce some stuff back into my diet again.

My first meal after this kind of cleanse, Banh Xeo. I thought I’d be fine since there was no soy. The only thing that was really non-compliant was probably sugar and the rice flour. Do I have a thing about rice?

Actually, my first legit meal was KBBQ at Hanjip in Culver City. Cloud had a long layover on her way to Costa Rica and she wanted kbbq and that was one that I’ve been meaning to try without having to drive all the way out to K-Town.

Overall, it was all right. Good to know there’s a AYCE kbbq spot that’s kind of decent. The price is what it is, but for the most part, it was good. I had a good time. Meat with very little veggies and beer.

My stomach felt okay afterwards. I didn’t think I had much problems with it, but then again, my stomach is reeling after the banh xeo. I don’t know what it is.

Now, I have bread too. Looking forward to my first bite of sourdough. I missed it. I know that I need to cut down the bread. It’s just the right thing and the healthy thing to do.

Let’s see how it goes.

I would prefer that my stomach is at 100% no issues before I try the bread, but I guess life has other plans for me.

I am severely underweight. I need to get my weight back to normal before I start rethinking my diet and maybe make it a lifestyle to be a little healthier. It’ll be tough. Very tough, but let’s hope I can do it.

But in the meantime, as I suffer to eat anything to get back to a healthy weight, I’m going to enjoy the fuck out of it.

Now all I’m doing is trying to figure out what I want to make and eat.

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This weekend I tried a new bread recipe that is 80% hydration. Shaping that dough was tough and I have no faith in the bread turning out well.

I baked two loaves this morning and one turned out okay and the other was flat. Very little rise and I’m sure the problem was in the shaping. I fucked it up and degassed that shit.

I hope that the other ones turn out to be better.

Here’s to hoping.

Along with the higher hydro, it uses four type of flour, rye, spelt, wheat, and white. I’ve never used rye and spelt before but I am very curious to what the flavor of the bread would be.

I just hope it is good. I think it’ll be good. I know it’ll be good.

I think I’ll try it freshly cut and then I’ll try it as toast and then maybe add butter with it. I don’t know. I want to know the taste and how different flour affects the bread.

Whether the bread turns out good or bad, I’m at a point that I don’t care. It was more of a way for me to destress and relax, more than anything.

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Food.

That’s all I’ve been thinking about. Food.

What I want to eat and what I think I should cook.

Food.

Right now, I’m doing research on how to do a deep-dish pizza.

It seems easy enough.

I think I should do it soon.

I’ll make it with sourdough pizza dough. Why not. Get more flavor, get more umphf.

I wish I wasn’t such a fan of food.