Tarot.

Readings.

I’m the type of the person who likes to believe in signs and destiny and all that mumbo jumbo bullshit. It’s entertainment and at times entertaining with some of the predictions that happens. It is what it is.

These are things that one should take with a grain of salt.

But what if the whole aura and personal energy of the mystics are true and each and every one emits their energy out into the world to be read and mingled with the Earth’s and the cosmos’s energy and they determine your fate and destiny? What if?

Again, grain of salt.

There’s a receptionist at my work who does readings. She’s in tune with the mystics and from time to time I’ll take readings from her. These are simple readings, no formations or what not. Just think about a question and pull a card.

I’ve even had MD pull a few cards for me.

Of course, whenever I pull a card I want to know about love or about a girl, but it seems that all the cards that I pull are great cards. But they don’t apply to my question in hand.

They seem more about my state of mind or my state of being and where I am in my life. They all describe my life and how I am feeling, which is confident, balanced, direction, I have a path, etc. etc.

They are all great things and they all apply to my life right now. I am experiencing all of these things and am in a great place in my life.

With this positive energy, how does it apply to the questions that I asked.

From what I can gather, live my life as I am living now. Follow this path and don’t force anything. Things will happen when it happens. I have a direction; I have a path in my life and I just have to let it happen.

Don’t force it.

So, I should just let things happen organically. It’s not like I am a man of inaction, I am a man of security. It must feel right and it must feel secure and sometimes that takes time to figure out.

Or maybe that’s just me telling myself that I am on the right track but that I’m afraid and therefore I don’t act.

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The year just started and I’m already thinking about my birthday trip already. I would like to do another short getaway to nature and I am thinking the Carlsbad Caverns National Park in Carlsbad, NM.

It’ll be a 13 hour or so drive. I think the question for me to figure out is what days that I want to take off and how I should plan the drive, whether I should just take one day to drive there and one day to drive back and two days at the caves OR take two days to drive there, two days at the cave, and then one day to drive back.

I’m sure I’ll have everything figured out when the times gets closer and I have a better understanding of how much time I have off for everything. I still need to keep our European Trip in mind when planning my trips along with possible work trips.

The work trips are iffy because they aren’t any major renovation or upgrades. Most of the work are setting up new users and that can be taken care of from SM.

I just want to leave it open in case there is a need for me to travel, but in all honesty, Carel will probably be handling these travels if there is a need. Of course he will.

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At the moment, my little health scare that I had before and during the break seems to be over.

I checked my blood pressure today and it seems to be back to normal. I have my physical on Wednesday and hope that everything checks out okay.

I do want to get my stomach issues looked at more closely ’cause it is definitely fucking with me and I don’t understand why. It’s pissing me the fuck off. What’s wrong with me?

With the new year and the issues I had, I started to run when I got back into town. It lasted three days. My knee started to hurt. It’s the usual knee pain that I’ve had most of my life.

Fuck my knees. I stopped running and to let it heal and I still haven’t run since then.

I’ve been doing yoga at home instead. I’m slowly working my way into it again. I found a series of videos on YouTube and I’ve been doing that. We’re taking it slow, which is good for me. I’m getting good stretches in my body, but I still need to find ways to get my heart rate up, more cardio that is low impact on my knees.

Maybe yoga is all I need. I don’t know, but I need to focus on my health. That’ll be one of my projects this year. Better health.

I am getting old and I should worry and focus on living a healthier lifestyle.

Maybe I should change my diet. I haven’t decided yet.

Honestly, it’s not like my diet is horrible. It’s actually not bad. I cook about 6 nights of the week using whole ingredients and limit my intake of processed foods. I’m getting into the habit of making things from scratch if I can.

It’s good.

I don’t eat a lot of red meat. I do eat it, but not as much as I use to, just a few times a month and I’m adding more and more veggies to my diet.

Wheat. That’s the big question. Is it bad for me? Do I have an actual problem with gluten?

I don’t think so, but I have been eating a lot more bread than I normally do and it’s because I’m in the habit of baking.

I should do the no carb thing or at least no wheat and dairy and no corn and peas for a month and see how I feel. It’ll be a true Whole 30 diet.

After the Chinese New Year. February. That’ll be the time to do it since I will have more control over my diet then.

Let’s see.

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Hipster.

The tarot reader asked if I was a hipster the other day. MD came to my defense and said I am my own person.

Hipster.

I am not a hipster. I don’t see myself as a hipster. There is really nothing NOTHING hipster about me, but most everyone thinks I am one.

Offended.

Very offended.

WHY?

I don’t think I dress like a hipster. I dress more like a preppy dude then a hipster, but I guess the lines are blurred and I don’t understand it.

I don’t have the temperament or the attitude of a hipster.

I don’t do things just to be original or like particular things just to be different.

I will never understand it.

I guess I’ll have to find someone to talk to who don’t know me much and ask how they see me, ’cause I honestly don’t fucking get it.

I don’t fucking get it.