Tired on this special day of Labor.

I’m at my usual getting in the mood to do some finger tapping. It’s been a long time since I’ve been doing my usual typing, ever since I started the Master Class. Since I know I wouldn’t able to focus on much of anything, I decided to go back to these ramblings for a bit.

It was a quick whirlwind weekend in Fresno. Well, it was actually more a day than anything else.

I drove up for Maggie’s wedding, well, the Chinese banquet side of it for Sister. Overall, it wasn’t too bad.

I got to know Tony and his friends a little bit better and for the most part, I just chilled.

Went straight to Gifu’s place bright and early in the morning and just chilled there until it was time for me to check into the hotel. There I chilled till it was time to go to the banquet.

They all told me to go at 6. That’s when it’ll start, so knowing me, hating to be late, I got there at 5:50pm. Big mistake.

I was the only one there for a good 30 minutes before anyone showed up and it wasn’t the hosts that showed up, but the guests. The tables started to fill up and 40 minutes after the party was to start was when someone Gifu and Sister showed up.

I didn’t sit at the wedding table, but at a separate table with Big Auntie and Phouc. For the most part it was fine, until they just tell me to keep eating when I was full. That got fucking annoying fast. Really fucking annoying, really fucking fast.

It was loud, as it usually is at these things and the lady that I was sitting next to talking over me to Auntie and Phouc didn’t help at all.

So, I just minded my own business, ate and just zoned out until it was over.

I was fucking ecstatic when it was finally over.

* * *

Looking back, I think the funniest shit that happened on Saturday was at the house. I was sitting on the couch where the ancestral altar was, chilling, minding my own damn business and then this fat kid in a blue shirt comes up to me and lays down on the empty spot on the couch. He was huffing and puffing annoyed, trying to get my attention. I paid him no mind. Damn kid.

He then tells me that my kids are annoying. I’m like, what kids? “The kids in the blue shirts.” “I don’t have kids.”

Just fucking funny. I guess I just look old enough to have these fucking kids. I look like an old man who has kids. Well, I guess to a kid, I do and am an adult, therefore it wouldn’t be a big stretch.

I am well old enough to have them.

Just too funny in my mind.

Apparently, he is a very self-important lazy entitled kid too.

I just ignored him.

* * *

After the banquet we all went back to their hotel room and chilled before making plans to go out and hit the bars to get some drinks. After my experience at the banquet, I just needed a fucking drink or two.

For the most part, it was pretty cool and chill. I stayed up really late too, way past my bedtime.

Honestly, thinking back, I don’t think I’ve really ever went socializing in Fresno before. Sure there were one or two times, but not really. It was interesting to say the least.

* * *

Ahhh, marriage. There is so much to say but so hard to put into words.

I don’t think I’m a qualified person to discuss or even to give advice on relationships. I don’t have a great track record with them, and given my longest relationship was just only 6 months. Definitely not qualified.

Thinking about marriage and knowing me and understanding my faults and qualities and just me as a person, I don’t think it is for me.

There’s just a lot of having to think and deal with another person. There’s not a lot of control there and we all know how much control I need over my life.

I’m sure a lot of people will just say that I need to find the right person and everything will be fine. Will it?

Compromise. That’s another good one.

I don’t know. I don’t even want to think about it now.

It’ll just be something that I don’t want to think about or focus on. Marriage isn’t for me.

Relationships, not for me.

Blah.