13 years.

Well, almost 13 years. It’ll just be a few more days until the anniversary, but in a blink of an eye and poof, it is that time of the year again.

With each year, it gets easier and with the breakthrough that I had a couple of years ago, it is much easier.

I almost forgot about the day, until I thought about the planned vacation coming up and realize that I was getting out of time close to the day.

Sure, I’ll be at work on the day that my father passed away 13 years ago, but in a way, it would be a weekend where I get to spend by myself out in nature and just be.

I still remember when there were years when I know that the day was coming, or the month of May would be here and I would just get in a funky mood for the whole month. Again, things had gotten a lot easier as the years gone by, but it is still hard.

I still have father issues. Watching shows or movies or any media that shows strained relationships between a father and a son or even their kids still gets to me. I don’t think I’ll ever get over that, but that’s just me.

But it is true that it gets easier with more time. It gets easier the further you get away from it. It just gets easier and thankfully that’s where I am now at.

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Distracted.

Not sure what I want to go in terms of my writing. I’m so behind on this writing project, but yet, here I am rambling and even the rambling isn’t going to go anywhere.

Not sure what is going on with me. Lack of iron? Or am I just bored and my ADHD is kicking in? I need to focus, but I don’t feel the cloudy hazy brain fog that I use to feel. So this is just a little bit different. Just a smidge.

I’m not sure what is going on, but it is something.

It isn’t my MLC. That’s over….for now. It’s definitely not that feeling. Definitely not at all.

Maybe it’ll go away.

At least I’m not having any stomach issues today. Not very bloaty or gassy. So, positive side?

Who knows?

I just need to get past the next four days of work and then I’m free for the road trip. Can’t wait.

Then it is planning the next two months of road trips and then maybe vacations for the rest of the year. I know that I have a few days saved up with no real big trips shaping up for next year, might as well try and enjoy it.

Chicago again? Maybe. Just maybe or maybe Napa again? Who knows. There are a lot of things up in the air and I’m not going to think that far ahead. I’ll just go with the flow and flow with the dough.

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Blah! Today is over. Too many distractions in the mind. Bladder is being ridiculous and feeling the urge to eat and buy me some spendy banh mi and I need to go to uncle’s today.

Blah.