Touch me like you do / what are you waiting for?

Love.

It happened.

Not to me. I’ve lost that romanticism years ago.

There’s no hope for me. No. No hope at all.

It’s my cousin. He found his love and tied the knot this past weekend.

Congrats to Dat and May.

It was a party all right. A lot of family came down to celebrate. It was a mad house.

It was loud and crowded, as a party should be.

It was chaos, mayhem to my senses and nerves.

But overall, it was fun. It was a great reason for everyone to come together to celebrate. It’s been a long long time since we had any reason to come together to celebrate. Most of the latest gatherings have been of loss and sadness. This was a good change and hopefully there will be more to come.

Thinking of who will be next, I don’t know, but I’m putting money on Lors.

It’s definitely not me, but I would say my bro might be a surprise. Who knows? I already think he’s married with children.

We shall see.

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Updating the themes to the blog fucked up my previous layout. I don’t give a fuck anymore. Blah. Blah indeed.

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It’s been a while since I have written here. Last entry was about my wonderful trip to Iceland.

Speaking of Iceland, I just have this urge to go back. I see all of these pictures and I just want to go. Pack up my bags, buy my ticket and just zoom off into the land of white.

Who knows? Knowing me, it just may happen. We shall see.

So, what had happened since then? Not much really.

Work and sickness.

A short visit by Cloud and then the wedding.

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The wedding. The weekend.

Thankfully it wasn’t a Red Wedding, but more purple/lavendar-ish.

As stated before, it was crowded. There were about 600 people at the banquet.

Who the hell knows 600 people? I know that Dat doesn’t, but it was just crazy.

The more and more of these weddings that I experience, it just cements the fact that I don’t like weddings.

If I am ever fortunate enough to take that leap, there would be no wedding. I know ultimately the choice isn’t mine alone, but I am going to bring it up. No wedding. Elope.

Elope.

Do it.

It would be my style, and it would be totally me.

It wouldn’t be a surprise to my family for they all know how I am and my thoughts on this area already.

A simple email or a Facebook post or even an IG pic saying that I’m hitched. Done. Simple.

I’m all for that.

Crazy.

But yes, it was good catching up and seeing a lot of family again.

It was good see their children grow up and to see that for the most part, I am not doing too bad myself.

Who cares that I’m almost 36 and single?

I know the older generation does as they all keep asking when I’m going to get married or when they’ll be served tea and I defiantly and loudly tell them that they’ll never get it.

Well, I don’t want to say never, but it seems that way. I’m open to the idea of being with someone, but right now, I’m not looking or even care about it.

I’m just more focused on what trips to take and where to go.

I’m married to traveling and my wanderlust nature.

I have my furkids to keep me company and right now, in life, that is all I need.

That is all I need.

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I didn’t really get to talk with the bride at all that weekend. We were never introduced and I’m not the type that introduces oneself to another person and if my cousin doesn’t, there’s really no reason for me to talk to her.

I think we only said three words to each other the whole weekend. She asked me if I wanted to play poker and I said no thank you.

Simple.

I know I could have made more of an effort to introduce myself, but nah.

It is what it is and I don’t think I’ll be seeing them anytime soon at all.

* * *

Script is finished.

Finally, but there are issues and it isn’t good. It’s my vomit draft where I just wrote everything out there and I know that I need to go back and align some stuff. It’s part rewritten, but it isn’t as I changed some elements partway through and I haven’t had the opportunity to rewrite everything leading up to that.

I’ll get to that in the coming few weeks as I need some time away from the script and to wait to hear back from Scott to see what he has to say about the script.

Then, I’ll do a quick draft and then share it with the rest of the group.

But done and done and it feels so good.

Today’s writing is definitely not going well, as for I have no idea what I’m doing.

My mind is just a wandering ride of not knowing what it is that I want to write or say.

I’m sure I’ll figure something out, eventually.

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If you dance on a pole, that don’t make you a ho

Words to live by I guess.

* * *

Alone.

No excitement. No people. No distractions.

I’m just sitting here, mostly alone except for the girls behind the counter, typing away.

Solitude.

I’m looking forward to just being on my own and not doing anything. I’m looking forward to sitting on my ass and watching movies and television and maybe do some light reading.

I’m looking for a tranquil and quiet weekend.

I’m looking for boring.

That sounds so exciting to me.

I want to relax and recharge my body and my mind from the loudness and crowds and excitement of last weekend.

I’m looking forward to just being by myself.

I welcome it.

Doing a little cooking to relax a little bit more.

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It was great to see my bro chit chat with Jen at the wedding and seeing how surprised that my cousins were when they noticed that.

He was smooth.

Good for him.

Maybe I shouldn’t worry so much about him.

I did see a great change in his personality during our Utah trip and he looks awesome and healthy.

Good for him.

Good for him indeed.

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’cause all the cool kids seem to fit in

Yeah, I’m not part of the cool kids.

I’m just doing me.

Man, this post isn’t going anywhere at all.

Hopefully thing will be better tomorrow, ’cause nothing is happening today.

It’s just been a while since I have written anything, or a while since I have blogged anything and I’m just rusty.

My fingers are just tapping away and doing a mind vomit and nothing substantial is coming out.

Nothing at all.

Blah.

Blah indeed.

I think I’ll end it here.

Till tomorrow.