Finger tappings. It’s been a long while since I have worked out the dexterity of my digits and I think it is time; time to get back to the working of it.

I would like to think that many things have happened in my life since then, many things that deserve the mentions that I usually do, but it just seems that I let those moments pass me by and become memories instead of my usual tappity words that I have come to do.

Well, hopefully I can just do a mind purge, and clear it out with whatever it is that I need to clear it out with. I just hope that I can just put words to page. Words to empty space.

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Eating.

That is the goal this weekend. That is the plan this weekend. Hien is flying down and all we are going to do is to eat.

Eating.

Love.

I hope that we get some good food. That’s all I’m really hoping for. Good. Food.

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Putting thoughts into words.

It just seems recently that I have no thoughts that I can put into words. I have things going on in my life, but at the same time, it seems like I don’t have much to say about them.

I have thoughts on Ms. D, or the new found Found Master, or even life in general.

Life. It goes on. My mantra.

It does. There’s nothing to it and it is up to you to keep up and make it what you will.

Things won’t always make you happy, but things won’t always make you sad. It is up to you to make it work for you.

Life.

Like the point in Take This Waltz, There will always be gaps in life. Don’t go crazy trying to fill it.

It is true.

To life. To gaps.

Just ride them out in the scrambler and maybe you can just enjoy the time, the song, the moment that you in and be happy, smiling and then eventually everything will just fade to black.

Just enjoy the moment. Just enjoy the time that you have. Don’t be afraid of the in between.

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Cute.

Driving me crazy.

It just seems that you can always make me smile, give me that feeling of utterly ahhhhh that I just want to gobble you up.

Ahhh. You drive me crazy indeed.

What can I do? What should I do?

Maybe this all goes back to that little precipice that I am standing on, that little point where I need to make a decision that will change my life, which will move my life forward instead of this rut or gap that I am in.

Soon, I will have to do it and just live with whatever happens.

Soon.

I’m tired of this thing that I am in, this thing that I am feeling. I’m just tired.

So literal, my feelings are.

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Words.

I’m just typing words now, for the sake of typing words, for filling up the clean white slate.

I’m afraid to leave things white and just so clean.

White pages just needs to be filled.

That’s the point of it.

But I think I’m just wasting time, not being able to focus on the things that I need to put down, the thoughts that I need to do, the words that I need to express.

So quiet in my new days.

Just. So. Quiet.

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