Starting fresh.

Starting new.

A crashed computer wiped out the rant I had earlier about a coworker of mine.

Angry and easily annoyed, that is what I am.

Angry and easily annoyed.

But I am learning to let it go. I’m taking the long weekend to just remove myself from the mind of work and hopefully go in on Monday with a better attitude.

Hopefully.

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Calm and calmed.

That’s what I need to be as I go about my days at work, just doing whatever project it is that I’m working on, learning on whatever it is that I need to learn.

I go about my day, doing whatever it is that I need to do.

Day in, day out.

My life.

The routine of the real world.

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There is this constant sense of anger that is in me as of late and I don’t know how it got there or when it got there. It is just there.

Maybe I am like the Hulk and that’s what it is about me too, I’m always angry. I am always angry.

Sometimes my anger of things, as I get easily annoyed at other people’s shit.

I just don’t know what the root of the issue is. Why is it there?

I thought that I am fixed through and through for the most part.

I thought, I thought.

I guess I thought wrong.

Maybe I am tired. Maybe I just need a break and take another trip, another vacation.

Maybe I just need a change.

It sure feels like I need a change.

I just need a big change in my life and I’ve felt this way in a long time.

Made known in my earlier entries, I just need a change.

2012 is a year of change for me, a year of growing up, maturing, just a little bit more.

This man-child that I have fallen in love with is getting antsy to grow up just a little bit, but it is fighting it.

Maybe that is where my irritability is coming from. Just maybe.

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Blah to this irritability. Blah to it all.

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