Ahhh to be back to my ol’ finger tapping ways, to be back with the ol’ diatribes of mindless rambling. Oh, just to be back.

It’s been a while, a long while since I’ve had the chance to just write and write and write to my heart’s content in this ol’ blog of mine.

2009. It’s been a busy year already. I guess.

I have been writing, but mostly it has been on scripts that I’m working on. The action script that I’m working on with Scott and my rewrite of A Ghost Story of Some Kind.

It’s been busy as I have a newfound rejuvenation of creativity, looking things over with new eyes and seeing things in a new light. Well, this applies mostly to AGSOSK. As for the action script, it is difficult collaborating, having different ideas and just meshing them together to make things fit and make each other happy. But, it is for the better. It is something that I can say that I did, with success. Even though we pretty much have to do a page 1 rewrite already and we weren’t even done with our first draft. We have to take a new approach. Just too funny that we’ve invested so much time and energy in getting this script together and before we even get 50 pages in, we are going back to page one. Interesting indeed.

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With a blink of an eye we are in March already. So much has happened. It really felt like a few days ago I was up in Federal Way, in the Tully’s writing my year-end diatribe going the blah blah blah that I usually do. But wow, to have it be almost three-and-a-half months ago. Where have all the time gone?

Where indeed?

I guess I just have been keeping busy. With the recession and everything, things are kind of hectic. My hours have been cut by 10%, so I am living on limited funds. I need to make a conscious effort to just cut down on my spending. Maybe my resolution of going out more, socializing more is not going to happen.

Speaking of which, I do think I’m making an effort to go out more and do more things. Grant it that I had and ulterior motive in it, but I am going out more. With the happy hours with the ol’ JGA crew, to bday celebrations, to dinners with the fam, to parties at the Carter’s, and celebrations of test taking….just going out and being more social.

I think it is a good thing that I am doing. I do need to go out more and do more things, even though it really doesn’t feel like I am. I just need to do it more. Maybe I will actually do one of these “First Friday” events at the Museum of Natural History that Luis raves about. I’m sure I will, but I’m just on a limited budget now and things are just going crazy with my schedule.

Busy busy busy.

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According to horoscope, well Chinese horoscopes, this year, the year of the Ox (or Cow) is going to be a bad year for me financially. It’s just going to be a tough year overall for me, and I’ve anticipated it. I knew this all along, and when the cut in hours came, I expected it. I’m thankful that I still have a job. I’m looking at the brighter side of things.

But for some reason, though I know I’m having a “tough” year, something came over me around the time of Chinese New Year’s. I’ve become so happy. There’s just this sense of elation and happiness and joyful joyful world that is going on inside me that I can’t explain it.

I really can’t. Even Leslie sees it and is kind of tripped up about it. Creepy tripped up.

But, all in all, things are good. Life is good. Life is happy. I know and see that I don’t have many things, like being in a relationship, or being rich, or doing what I want, but I’m happy. I don’t know why?

Maybe it is the stress free job that I have. Maybe I just grew up a little and see things for what they are, not that I don’t already. I just don’t know; things are good. I’m happy, giddy, go-lucky.

Life is good.

I can’t complain.

Money is tight, and I need to make an effort to stretch it for what it is worth.

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Maybe my happiness stems from the fact that I am making some kind of progress in the whole film front. I have two projects lined up. One thrown together in a matter of weeks and another one planned out in months and months. Things are taking shape and I guess the anticipation and the forward movement of the projects is keeping my spirits up.

Actually moving along with A Political Situation really jump started it. Actually setting up the auditions and doing it just sealed the deal. Giddy giddy ever since. It is actually going to happen. Just next week as a matter of fact. I’m very nervous. Very nervous, because this is big. Not only is it not just my money, but Scott’s and it is his script that I’m going to shoot. For the past few months, lots of planning and thinking and coordinating and time time time have been spent on getting to next weekend.

Nervous. I just hope that things run smoothly.

As for the other shoot, it is just thrown together. In one insomniac night, I got up and wrote the script in about 10 minutes and asked a few friends to be the actors. Why waste renting a camera just to practice shooting when I can actually shoot a by-the-hip short and put everything together while getting practice on the camera and shooting.

Kill two birds with one stone.

I guess it is just nice that I’m in a creative bug again and it has nothing to do with writing. It is a creativity of preplanning and execution. I just can’t wait. I don’t know how things are going to turn out, but I have such high expectations of everything, even the thrown together ghost short that I really don’t care anything about because they are cast with non-actors.

All in all, I think things will be fun, exciting, and eye opening. I just can’t wait. Fun fun fun.

I have two great actors for Scott’s short and they both seem cool, down to earth and have a great sense of humor. Things are just looking up and up. Ahhhh…things are nice.

Life goes on and on like it usually goes but not like it has before.

Life is good.

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Ahhh, I don’t know, but life is good. Things aren’t so tough anymore. Just looking at things and just taking things one step at a time. One day at a time. Simple simple simple.

It’s easier to just let things go and not fret.

I haven’t heard from her in a while, but that’s okay. Something I need to do anyway as it makes it easier to let go.

I’m keeping my options open even though I’m not looking for anything.

It’s easier to talk to people especially since I know nothing is going to come out of anything.

They all seem nice, sweet, beautiful, etc etc etc. Things are just easier to just do my thing with a lil’ chit to the chat and not worry about anything.

I’m not making any effort of doing anything, because maybe I know for sure I’m not looking for anything. Nothing at all.

Whatever happens, happens and there is nothing I can do about it. Nothing at all. It is not for me to decide what life throws at me. It is for me to decide how to act and hopefully I act in the best way that I can. I think I am doing that. I think I am managing that.

Sigh

Life is good and I honestly don’t know how or when or why, but they are good.

Maybe I do have something for the year of the Ox, 2009.

2009, the year of happiness? It’s still too early to tell, but it is shaping up to it. Maybe I just jinxed myself there, who knows. I sure don’t.

Sitting here, on a Wednesday no less, typing away in my usual ol’ spot, the boba shop doing my thing. Just feels so right, feels so natural.

I’m not even stressing out that I’m going to turn 30 in a little less than a month. Bring it on. Bring on my 30s. Yay yay yay!

Ahhh…life.

Good.