You were my Lord.
You were my Father.
I worshipped you like any son would.
I followed in your footsteps because you were my role model.
You taught me to be just, to be right.
You taught me humility and humbleness.
I try to make the right decisions, to be fair.
I try to tame my ego and my arrogance.
You were there to save me when I had done wrong.
You were there to guide me when I needed direction.
I am a sinner and I can’t find salvation.
I am a lost soul and I can’t find my way.
You were close but yet so far away.
You were warm but yet so cold.
I feel so far from you even though you are in my heart.
I feel so frigid even though I’m surrounded by your warmth.
You watched over me and now I am forever grateful.
You loved me and now I finally know.
I can never see you again and you don’t know how much it hurts.
I love you more than anything and you will never know.
2008-11-1
Mumblings of a Hermit 隐者 