Things are getting easier. Things are still tough, but things are finally getting a little easier. Easier to breathe, easier to just let go and move on.

I don’t know why it is that way; maybe I’ve just gotten older and have a realistic understanding of the world.

Life is life.

Sometimes, things will just go your way. Other times, it just doesn’t. Whatever comes comes and you have no say in it. You absolutely have no say in it.

You are presented a situation, and you have to sit down and evaluate. You got to compare the good, the bad, the in between and make a decision base on what you know and have to stick to it like glue. There’s no turning back. None. You made a decision.

I made a decision. I live and die by my decision. Everything that I’ve done up to this point in my life, up to this minute, second, all come about by choices that I’ve made in my life. I made one today and I have to stick with it.

I really wanted things to be different. I really did hope that things turned out so differently, but it didn’t.

I know me. I know the type of person I am. I know my heart, inside and out. I know what I can do and what I can’t do.

I made my decision, and let’s just hope that there are no regrets on my part from it. I know there won’t be. I just have to stick with it.

But again, these decisions that I’ve made has gotten easier in my life. They aren’t so life and death like they use to be; not so dramatic anymore.

It was a decision that I made to make things easier on me. And in the long run, it will make things easier.

Things are out and up in the air. There are no secrets. Informed and explained. Understanding.

Sure I will lose some great times, but it has to be done.

I will not forget the times. I will not forget the talks, the joys, the cheers. I will not forget, because it has been a while since I’ve experienced those things. It has been a long time since I had such a great time where I’m completely relaxed and was able to just talk and get to know someone.

Relaxed. No regrets.

It will be in my thoughts for some time to come, but eventually it will fade into my memories, ready to be pulled up at any second, but it will be in the past. It’s not immediate and fresh anymore; with each passing second, it fades away. The pain subsides and I’m back to where I was not so long ago.

Me, myself, and I.

Not so long ago.

Not much has changed, but everything has changed.